Before I die..

Hi,
I'm lost in my head. I'm submerge. I fell so happy and sad. I really don't know what to do. I want be 18 years old and move from this town and travel the world. Meet someone cool. Live in a dram world. Be myself. But I'm only teenager for world who is stupid and don't know anything about live. Maybe they have right ,that i don't know anything about live but i want to grow up. Find my place in world. And just make my dreams comes truth.

Before I die I want..
~travel the world
~help people
~be myself
~live in  a dream
~go on road trip
~have an adventure of my life
~find my place on Earth
~ride an elephant
~see sunrise and sunset on the beach
~go to Stonehenge
~move to London
~get tattoos 
~walk on the great wall in China
~begin in something perfect
~meet my idols
~live every day like it is music festival
~help children in America
~fall in love
~read lots of books
~have my own library
~accept my whole body
~have unusual animal
~play in rock band
~start a diary and in it write every day
~put a piece of gum on the gum wall in Seattle
~try macarons
~try all kind of fruits all around the world
~have a homosexual friend
~learn the guitar
~make my all dreams come truth 
~get piercings
~meet authours of my fav books
~give money to someone who need it more than me
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